Early Morning Blog.

And by early morning I mean 1:46 AM early. No I wasn't just getting home-HA! As you all know I'm usually in bed by 10:30...11:30 on the weekends. So yea normal night-settled in around 10:20 and BAM 1:46 I'm up, as wide as can be. Nice city lights peaking in through the blinds, soft noise from the street down below and Jennifer's eyes wide awake. Nothing on my mind really (well maybe, read on). I was 84% tempted to start writing this then but I didn't want to get out of bed (Mark's a light sleeper), plus I'm lazy. So basically I'll start now. PS-this post is the most random ever, do enjoy.


Number one thing on my mind....
My priorities, man have they changed. Now that I've been in this "social media" atmosphere for over 6 months-I feel like I'm in high school, trying to be popular or something pathetic like that. Whether it's my tweets, or my posts, or even my @replies- I NEED THAT FEEDBACK, that response, that acknowledgment. For some reason all of a sudden I need to be liked...I'm mildly obsessed with people following me, commenting on something or mentioning something I've wrote about when in conversation. I sulk when I post something and get no comments, I reread the thing like 14 times for errors and what not and freak out about it. Is this something in the "blogger world" that I have yet to be informed of, is there a pill to take? Yeah I know you're thinking "how about just growing up!??!" Well, thanks but I've tried and it didn't work, :( so now what!?

Second thing running through my mind...
My doctor...ugh. Long story short my thyroid was removed in '97 (WOAH-12 years ago) since I was hyperactive so now I am hypoactive-AKA I have hypothyroidism. It's normally very controllable or so I was told 12 years ago when I opted for the radio-active treatment verse the actual surgery/removal (and scar) of the thyroid. But now it's been known to be more sensitive, yeah Hi "patient testing" where were you 12 years ago?!?! So anyways my TSH (hormones) all are over the board, which I sort of assumed (I know my body pretty well) since I'm gaining weight with no changes to my diet and extra, obscene amounts of exercise. So it was pretty obvious something was up. On top of that I'm dead to the world at like 9pm-used to be able to get up 7 DAYS a week at 5:30 without any effort, now I sleep for about 12-15 hours a night on the weekends.
So yesterday was spent in the docs office with buckets of tears (yeah I'm an emotional wreck too because of it), and tube after tube of blood work. :( Should have results back in a week or so....the worst thing about it is they keep reminding me that if Mark and I ever plan (we ARE NOT AT THE MOMENT) to get pregnant the chances of A) conceiving and B) bringing it full term are at about 35 to 45%. Soo waaa-not that I'm too keen on having children but now the thought of not being ABLE is nothing less than a sucker punch. Whatever,I'll get a small dog.

Third thing....
Milwaukee....YAY!!! Six of us are road tripping it up to Wisconsin for the weekend. I'm pumped, I've been to Wisconsin only four other times, all to Lake Geneva, three for bachelorette parties and once up to my cousin's in-laws. So yeah WOO HOO...Miller Brewing Company tour and Brewers game planned! Tailgating starts at 4pm tomorrow. So Mother Nature be nice.

And finally.....Friday Tunes....
Written for his wife. Lucky lady I tell ya, and I'm a sap.



I get chills....yep loser here!
Ok thanks for sticking with me on this melting pot of randomness. Later! :)